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From: Koqunia "Ko" Forte' (JustCallMeKo1@yahoo.com)
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Through situations that have happened in the past couple of months, God has taught me how to be a servant in my family. We all have had to make many sacrifices lately. Sometimes we don't know how things will be accomplished. But we all know that as we continue to serve God and trust in Him, He will arrange all things to work out for His ordained greater good. But between tragedy and my move to college, I lost my sight of God. I have lived so selfishly for so long! Blaming my past on others who have hurt me caused bitterness to pile up inside. It is impossible to do God's work with a hardened and cynical heart. I looked at everyone as an enemy, a potetial threat, someone who is trying to knock me down. I had no idea unforgiveness and bitterness could make so much destruction in my life. But all this week God has been asking me, "What is most important in life." With my angry frame of mind, I was living at the center of my own world. I made myself the most important. I built up walls around myself. I dwelt on myself and my personal situations at all times. I had a serious wake up call when I returned to Genesis ! and read, "In the beginning God created..." He is the beginning and end. Through Him all things were made that have been made. All things were made through Him and by Him and for Him. The world does not revolve around me. Maybe now God can begin to use me again for his service.